When I first “met” the Lord Jesus Christ, I was a proud, arrogant Christ-hater. I could not understand how He could humble Himself, love me enough to want to come into my wretched life. I could not understand, but only surrender to this kind of love. From that time, I have wanted to literally and physically meet Him and touch Him.

As I began to learn His ways from His word, I would wonder what our first meeting would be like. I imagined that I would fall down at His feet then kneel down before Him and proclaim, “My God and my Lord!” and then He would majestically wave His hand over me and proclaim, “Well done, thou good and faithful servant!”. I hoped so.

As the years went by and the responsibilities of his Word and His Church took hold of me, I would, more than they that watch for the morning, dream about our first physical meeting. Feeling somewhat dissatisfied with the previously imagined first meeting, I now became slightly bolder and this time I decided that I would fall down before His feet and wrap my arms around His legs. I imagined that He would then lift me up, smile at me and then pat me on my back and send me on my way. Ah! At least now I had really touched Him!

In following years, the zeal of His house continued to roar like a fire within me. Battle scars made me long for His dear literal presence again. Now I was definitely not satisfied with my earlier imagined meetings. This time, I began to press Him for His thoughts concerning our first physical meeting.

I began to sense that He was longing for that moment more than I did! It had to be so, for was it not He who first loved me? I was developing a growing sense of excitement at the revelation that was about to come. I knew that He was going to open His heart in a special and satisfying way.

One day as I was musing, I saw the whole scene of our first meeting. The Holy Spirit flashed it before my mind's eye.

Suddenly, He was near me. I was not crawling or bawling at His feet. I was standing upright before Him. I was oblivious to everything around us. He then kissed me on my cheek. In a flash, I realised that this was how our first physical meeting would be. The Holy Spirit also immediately brought to my remembrance, the scripture, “Greet one another with a holy kiss!”

At that moment, I also remembered an apostle of God who had welcomed me into his church once with a kiss on my cheek. I now knew without a doubt that this was how our first meeting would be. He would meet me with a kiss! We then began to walk away together as a friend with friend, discussing important matters.


Some more ramblings on seeing Him

For a long time, I had been telling the Lord, “We both love each other so much. But, I have one thing against this. You can see me anytime you want to, because you are almighty God, but I cannot do so”. I was after Him for many months this way.

One day, He said, “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God”.

I said, “Lord that is wonderful, but that sounds like it is in the future”.

The Blessed Comforter again came to my aid and showed me how that grand old saint of old, Job, had declared, “I have heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye seeth Thee!”

Bless the Lord, and Hallelujah, I can, I will and I do see Him now!


Final rambling on seeing Him

Quite recently, I began to wonder if my love for Jesus would be the same ever. Would it diminish or fade after the initial thrill of meeting Him was over? I wanted above all things to make sure that I would always love Him with the same zeal and intensity throughout eternity. I began to feel a bit uneasy about the prospect of my love for Him reducing after entering into His mansions. Oh! How I wanted to secure my love for Him!

The Blessed Comforter again ministered to this need one day and said, “Your love for Him will never reduce”.

I said, “How can I be sure?”

He said, “ You love the Lord, because He first loved you. Nothing is going to separate you from His love. His love for you is steadfast and never ceasing, and so your love for Him too will be sure and steady”.

The Holy Spirit also assured me through the Scriptures that love would remain. "Now abideth faith, hope and love"

Ah! Now I am at rest, concerning seeing Him.